The visionary’s road is a lonely, deeply irksome one — that of changing the world before the world knows it has been changed.
But, this time of being hidden from the world is deeply sweet in its own way — and ultimately you find the only reward worth it, the reward you already have — is that from the hand of God Himself. The sweetness of being unheard of while holding dynamic beauty and power is something you will look back on as a treasure later. Though, in every state of life, we can have joy and confidence that — through the One that by His own will we live for — Jesus Christ, He is our eternal crown and glory forever.
When the Lord exalts you, in His will and in His time, it will be an enjoyable thrill and ride that only will have meaning because you have been lifted up with the One who was with you all along, whose hand created you, guided you, moved heaven and earth for you while you were in painful despair, who shifted the kingdoms of the earth to glorify Himself through You, who at the same time works according to a will affixed long before you, but that deeply mysteriously gloriously always included you. To Him alone be the glory forever, amen.
Your fuel is the daily joy in the Holy Spirit, completely paid for by the Lord Jesus on the cross. What glory and mystery it truly is! It is completely finished. Your justification and glorification are complete.
Your life is you getting to observe the unfolding of the glory of God for your first time — observing glory upon glory, completely cemented as a part of eternity’s heroic history.